Goodbye 2010, Hello 2011!
The following is mainly just personal thoughts that I have obtained over the past few days, so feel free to skip over if you wish.
With 2010 ending in about 24 hours, it’s amazing how far we’ve come over a year’s time. I personally have met some amazing people, had some interesting conversations and recently got over quite a few personal flaws that I realized I had obtained over the year. After sitting here for the past hour or so, I’ve come to realize how short life can be at times. The days seem to go by faster as the year progresses, and it’s amazing how many times one can fuck up throughout the year.
I guess if you look back at it, the one thing you can never change is what went on in the past, and once you come to terms with it, the only thing you can really do is keep that mistake in the mind, move on, and learn from it. I realize I had made some mistakes in the past year, and didn’t really realize it until just recently, so starting in 2011, I am going to keep the mistakes I made in the past year, and learn from them for next year. I guess everyone changes as years progress, old friends move on, you make new friends and then the cycle begins all over but those memories you make and gain will stick with you throughout the years. Also, the mood you carry into the year seems to stick with you throughout the year as well.
I went into 2010 in bed with my leg up off the ground due to a accident that had happened a week before, and the bitterness seemed to have made me a semi-scrooge when it came to having fun, due to depression kicking in and then when I finally went back to my youtube channel and began looking around at new channels to check out with the help of a old now ex friend, it really gives you a brighter outlook. I’ve met some amazing people, and I know one or two read this blog, and if it wasn’t for them, who knows what I would be doing or where I would be today. It also really helps throughout the year to have a life long friend by your side. I realized who my true friends were over the past year and it really changes the thought process. Yes there were times I probably had annoyed some people throughout the year and after taking a deep thought about it in the past few nights, I really wish I could have changed it at the time but it comes back to remembering it for next time.
Another thing is, there is a natural cure for depression, and I have come to realize it. That cure is having a true friend to be there by your side even when you are down at the bottom of life, trying to fight through it on your own, but it always helps to have someone close to get a lot off the chest, no matter how bizarre it may be. You just need to find the right person to put faith into, and begin to open up, no matter how hard it may seem. I realized that recently and every day we talk, it just seems like more stress in life just seems to disappear. Come 2011, I know I will be making some major and minor changes to how I live.
Another thing I realized this past year was how much stuff I have obtained, and either used once, or never used at all due to having a impulse to spend on everything that friends may recommend, or mention that was good, also how much I have spent over recent months on sending stuff out across country for friends who I talked to online, and never thought about the rest of the month, or for real life friends at times. So starting in 2011, I’ll be most likely going through a lot of the stuff, and either donating it to the local thrift stores, or pass it on to my brother. This past year, I also spent a good fortune on cd’s, including the completion to the Our Lady Peace discography, that put a pretty dent in the wallet. I finally realized that I have a entire life to collect, and I don’t have to buy every little thing that comes my way, as well as begin planning for the future.
Another thing I plan on hopefully achieving this next year is get more in touch with people I seem to only talk to either via youtube, twitter, etc. and hopefully get faith in myself to actually open up to some of those people instead of cowering in the shadows, and staying afraid to even say hi to them on skype or whatever else. There’s a few people who I talk to mainly on youtube, and I have on skype, but every time I load the page, I always second think myself and back off. I noticed that one of my major flaws in life is to actually open up to people instead of hiding in the shadows or whatever, and try to be more like myself inside than acting like a empty shell at times.
Lastly, I realized that no matter how fucked up life can be, there’s always a light at the end of the tunnel, and no matter how many forks in the road you may run into, or how many speed bumps you might hit in life, they always work out in the end. Hopefully in 2011, I can live up to my new year resolutions and as for me, I am off to get ready for bed, and to prepare for a concert in Niagara Falls. Goodnight and have a happy new year.
